House of Balloons

I encounter millions of bodies in my life,

Of these millions,

I may desire hundreds,

But of these hundreds,

I love only one,

I spend most nights at home falling in love with the idea of you,

I hope you won't be temporary,

I never expected you,

Sometimes people sneak up on you,

And suddenly,

You don't know how you ever lived without them,

We had everything to say to each other,

But no ways to say it,

You're within me;

In every thought,

In every word,

In every act,

We are connected,

And I like you;

Your eyes are full of language,

Tell me every terrible thing you have done,

And let me love you anyway,

But I..

I am a collection of dismantled almosts,

And..

That's how it is when a person develops an attraction towards someone,

You are nowhere,

But suddenly you are everywhere,

Whether I want you to be or not,

And I don't know,

You have lived on broken hearts all your life,

And I wonder,

If you notice me at all,

Or If the thought of us comes up to your mind as it does to mine,

It seems that,

The more time and distance you put in between us,

The larger you grow in my heart,

And I yearn for the day that I wake up next to you,

Have coffee in the morning as we discuss our plans together,

And wander through the city with your hand in mine,

I want love around me and in me at all times,

I...

I would choose five minutes with you,

Over a lifetime with anyone else,

I wonder how many people do not get the one they want,

But end up with the one they're supposed to be with,

And I..

I've learned to cope by spilling these words on paper,

Hoping one day,

Somewhere on the page,

Among these irrational thoughts and feelings,

We would be together,

But I..

I still search for you between all these crowds,

On all these roads and wishing stars,

Neither one of us knows what might happen tomorrow,

Yet we move forwards,

Carrying blind hopes in these tormented hearts of ours,

A vain attempt to make us feel better,

But there's something about you,

You always wore black,

But you have the most colorful mind,

You were most beautiful,

Whenever you are most comfortable,

Whenever you are most,

You,

And sometimes,

I have kept my feelings to myself,

Because I just couldn't find the language to describe them in,

And I have loved you with all my damaged heart,

But you..

You were so distant,

Sometimes I forgot you were there at all,

And I am on the outside,

Looking at you,

And a man so painfully in love,

Is capable of self-torture beyond belief,

Love is an untamed force,

It cannot be controlled,

And I...

I keep finding myself in the wrong story,

I am writing a chapter I would never read out loud,

I don't even fit here,

So why go and pretend like I do?

Let it hurt,

Let it bleed,

Let it heal,

And let it go,

And I hope...

I hope you will find someone who would know how to love you when you are sad,

When you have had enough of everyone around,

I hope he knows how to comfort you,

And make you feel better,

When all the world have stood against you,

I wish he will always be by your side,

And I hope...

I hope he loves you like I do,

I sigh..

And I...

I wish you remember me,

As if you remember me,

Then I do not care if everyone else forgets,

I...

I would have offered you the world,

But you said that you had your own,

And I..

I still think about you,

But I don't say it anymore.