Obsessed

All my life I was never there, I was just a ghost, you picked me up, showed me a different view of the very same life I was living, I went from staring into the same four walls to staring into those beautiful hazy eyes of yours, I found myself lying between your arms, I found peace when I found you, I found myself when I found you, and it just felt like I was born again, you are like my favorite song stuck in my head; easy to remember, hard to forget, you are my obsession, my daydreaming, my midnight thoughts, the man I see in my dreams.. all the heart I have left, I would give it to you, I don't want only words, if that's all you have to offer, I want you, I find myself thinking about you from time to time wondering what if I made you mine, I fell in love with you, your wavy black hair that you are too busy to comb, your big wide eyes that I often find staring blankly, the amount of time you spend to match your shirt with your shoes, I fell in love with your heart, your pure soul, the way you made me laugh, your confidence, the way you treated me, you believed in me, trusted me when no one did, you stood by my side when no one else would, you said that you like me, I remember once you had a break and I asked you to have coffee, you happily agreed, you went on talking for the whole hour while all I did was stare at you and your handsomeness, I think that's when I knew that I fell in love with you, you were not like the other guys, you were different, you were mine, and you loved that I am yours.

I wrote a diary of all the times we met, all the things you said to me and how you made me feel, every word you speak is added up to the book that I read every single night, I love how it makes me feel, you are different to me, different than anyone else, you are what makes me who I am, remember the photo we had on Christmas with our coworkers?, I cropped everyone and kept you, I glued it to the very first page of my diary, I cherished every single complement you said to me, I want to be more than just your friend, I don't want to rush anything, but I don't want to waste any time either, I want to write poems about you until my pen dries out, I want to wait for you, I want to kiss you until my lips are sore and dry, I want you to hold me close, I want you to stare into my eyes and tell me that you love me, tell me that you feel the same as I do, tell me that you can't live without me, tell me how much you need me, tell me that you have had dreams about me just like all my dreams were about you, call me at the middle of the night just to talk, I don't want roses, tulips or diamond rings, I just want to be yours.

I can not understand anything but how much I love you and what you mean to me, my body is screaming your name, the blood in my veins is flowing for you, you are the first idea that crosses my mind every single day, it feels that my heart just wants to jump out of my chest and hold you, I found peace when I was confused in you, I found hope when I was let down in you, I hope to find it in the end, let me love you, satisfy my cravings for you, hold me closer, come to me, don't let my love be wasted, no one will love you like me, no one has ever rejected me before, I fell in love with an illusion of you, something I created in my messed up mind, you are the one that I do not see in my future, but as it, it is difficult to rewrite the story you tell yourself every night, what we got here, how did we fucking get here, you are supposed to be mine, I do not care about anybody else but you, come back, don't let this love be a waste, you promised me everything will be okay, you text me like we are lovers but treat me as a casual acquaintance; which are you, which am I?, you promised me to be there if I needed you, we can't be just friends, we are perfect for each other, how can you not see what I see, you are my prince and I am your only princess, baby come back, grab my hand, let's try again, open your heart, let me come inside, let me be your lover, let us be who we are supposed to be, don't let me down, don't break my heart, look into my eyes, you are all what I need, you belong to me, as you are and I am all yours, as I am. I don't want you to go, I don't want you to love anyone else, I can't believe everything I feel for you is not enough, stop thinking about yourself and start thinking about us together and what we are going to achieve, I don't know what to do without you, you are everything to me, the unrequited dream, a song that no one sings, the unattainable, you are a myth that I have to believe in, all I need to make it real is one more reason, so please I know you baby, I believe you can love me, don't complicate it, just let it be, you belong with me, I know that you want to stay, I hope you want to stay.