Sunday, March 9, 2025

Vernal Equinox


It was Spring again. The leaves swayed gently, stirred by the wind’s quiet whispers, and the birds, oblivious to sorrow, filled the air with their carefree songs. Flowers trembled at the touch of the breeze, stretching toward the sun that had finally broken free from Winter’s heavy grasp. The world was coming alive, shaking off the cold, and for the first time in a long while, he felt something stir within him too—a quiet hope, tentative but persistent. Yet, what made this Spring different wasn’t just the warmth or the light. It was her. She had been there all along, a quiet presence in his life, but only now, as the season shifted, did he begin to see her clearly.

Winter had been merciless. It arrived without warning, seeping into his life the way frost crept over glass—quiet, inevitable, unfeeling. The cold wasn’t just outside; it lived inside him now, settling in the spaces where warmth used to be. Days blurred together, each one indistinguishable from the last, stretched thin beneath a grey sky that never seemed to break. Snow piled against his window in uneven mounds, burying the world beneath layers of silence.

There were no bright mornings, no golden light spilling through the blinds—only the dull, colourless glow of a sun too tired to shine. He would wake to the same empty air, the same untouched bed, the same ghost of something that used to be. Sometimes, he swore he could still hear her voice in the quiet, like a whisper carried by the wind—except it was never really there. Just echoes of a past that refused to let go.

He stopped counting the days after a while. What was the point? Time had become shapeless, stretching endlessly forward, yet going nowhere at all. The world outside moved on—people hurrying through the cold, bundled in thick scarves, steam rising from their lips as they laughed, as if winter was just another season to endure. But he remained frozen, trapped beneath the weight of things unsaid, things undone. The walls of his apartment felt smaller with each passing day, the silence heavier. Sometimes, he would step outside, only to realize the air no longer bit at him the way it should. He had gotten used to it.

And that scared him.

Because what if the cold never left? What if this was all that remained—a season without end, a life spent watching the world thaw while he stayed buried in the ice?

But seasons change, even when it feels like they won’t.

It wasn’t sudden. Winter didn’t surrender in a single day, nor did the cold loosen its grip without resistance. But something was different. Subtle at first, like the faintest crack in thick ice.

One morning, he stepped outside, expecting the usual sharp bite of cold air against his skin—but it wasn’t there. Instead, the wind carried something else, something lighter. It was the kind of breeze that didn’t cut but stirred, whispering through the bare branches as if waking them from a long slumber. The sky, still pale and hesitant, held a softness it hadn’t before. He found himself standing there longer than usual, hands in his pockets, as if trying to understand what had changed.

It wasn’t warmth. Not yet. But it was the absence of the worst of the cold.

And that was something.

The city, too, seemed to sense the shift. Snow, once an unyielding sheet of white, had begun to thin, revealing glimpses of the world beneath. Patches of earth peeked through the frost-bitten ground, the streets damp with melted ice. Shopkeepers propped open their doors, letting in air that no longer stung, and for the first time in months, he heard birds. Not many—just a few, their songs fragile, uncertain, as if testing whether it was safe to return.

And then there was her.

She had always been there, woven into the fabric of his days in ways he never truly noticed before. A voice in passing, a laugh that lingered in the air longer than it should, a presence that had never demanded his attention but never quite disappeared either. He didn’t know what made him see her differently now—perhaps it was the season shifting, or perhaps it was him.

She smiled at him that day, a simple thing, effortless. But something about it felt different. Or maybe, just maybe, it was the first time he had really looked.

Hope was a quiet thing. It didn’t come in grand gestures or sudden revelations but in the smallest moments—barely noticeable unless one paid attention.

He began to notice more.

The way the light lingered longer in the evenings, stretching golden fingers across the pavement. The way the air smelled—not of frost, but of earth, thawed and breathing again. The way her presence felt different now. Warmer. Closer.

They talked more, though neither of them acknowledged the shift. It was in the casual exchanges, the way conversation stretched past what was necessary. A comment that turned into a shared thought. A joke that lingered longer than expected. A pause—never awkward, never rushed—just a moment where silence felt comfortable.

She was easy to talk to. Easy to be around. And that terrified him.

Because easy meant effortless. And effortless meant dangerous. It meant he could slip, without realizing it, into something he wasn’t sure he was ready for. He caught himself watching her sometimes—not in the obvious way, but in the way one observes a sunset, unaware they had stopped to look.

But love was not a sudden downpour; it was a slow rain, seeping into the cracks of his guarded heart. He felt it, a presence just beneath the surface, waiting.

And yet, he wasn’t sure if he could let it in.

Spring had arrived, but Winter had left its mark.

Some nights, when the world was quiet, he still felt the weight of old scars pressing against his chest. Love, after all, had once promised warmth before leaving him in the cold. And even now, with her laughter weaving through his days like sunlight through branches, doubt lingered.

What if this was temporary? What if, like the seasons, warmth would come only to leave again?

One evening, they walked together, the world around them alive with the scent of damp earth and blooming flowers. She spoke of something—he wasn’t even sure what, lost in the way her voice carried through the soft air. But then, she asked him something. Something small, something simple.

And he hesitated.

She noticed. He saw it in the way her smile faltered, just slightly. The way her gaze searched his, waiting for a truth he wasn’t sure he could give.

But fear was not a thing that left easily. It lingered, whispered. Told him that stepping forward meant stepping into the unknown. And for a moment, the cold threatened to return.

But then she did something he hadn’t expected.

She didn’t press. She didn’t demand answers. Instead, she simply walked beside him, unfazed by his silence. As if she understood. As if she was willing to wait.

And for the first time, he wondered if maybe—just maybe—he wasn’t as alone in this as he thought.

Something had changed. Not in the world, but in him.

It wasn’t an epiphany, nor a sudden rush of certainty. Just… an understanding. A quiet knowing that whatever this was—this connection, this warmth—it wasn’t something to fear.

He met her gaze then, and for the first time, he did not look away.

There was no dramatic declaration. No grand moment of realization. Just the quiet certainty that he had stepped into something new.

The days grew warmer, and so did he.

He found himself searching for her presence before he even realized it. A shared glance across a room. A laugh that softened the edges of a hard day. A moment of silence that felt more like companionship than emptiness.

One evening, as they walked side by side, she reached for his hand—casual, unthinking. And for the first time in a long time, he did not flinch.

The cold was gone.

And in its place, something else had settled. Something warm. Something real.

Something like love.

Vernal Equinox

It was Spring again. The leaves swayed gently, stirred by the wind’s quiet whispers, and the birds, oblivious to sorrow, filled the air with...