In the absence of light there the darkness supervenes and turns the world you once described as heaven into a dull colorless reflection of your illusory thoughts and perplexed behavior that governed you and took the joy from everything you do.
There you stand helpless, drained, empty as you feel that you did not fulfill your goals and haven't met your destination in life only to realize too late that life is a journey, not a destination.
And all the self-esteem you once had, all the confidence that helped you reach your current position, all the dreams you waited anxiously to live fall apart and disintegrate in a pond of lies that you have heard along the journey you shared with another person only to realize that you can never lie to yourself and you finally to choose to let go of the rope between you that you have been holding on for too long.
A lost love has teared you, controlled you and took the joy of everything you used to enjoy. It left you in a constant state of denial and self-neglect. Human chemistry is a mystery; some people feel like home, others are just wandering guests in your life that happened to be in the same place and time you were. A loss however was something you could not just accept but was forced to.
A woman can say more in a sigh than a man can say in a sermon; he killed what was left of the good in you but you are tired so you accepted to be broken and instead of rising together into an unattainable level of happiness that he promised, you find yourself left behind as an outcast, a stranger, a friend to him no more or no less while he seems to be in a constant state of euphoria and joy as if nothing has happened and 'you' have never existed or meant anything to him.
But you were told that you were his favorite Hello and hardest Goodbye, you were told that you made him happy and you were enough and everything he needs, you were told that your strength is beyond your imagination and together both of you will climb up the ladder of happiness and delight. Those words seem to have stuck in the corner of your brain, just hanging around to remind you of how naive you were and how words mean nothing with no corresponding action, he gave up on you but what followed is that you gave up on yourself.
Life is finite and fragile, and just because something is there for one day, it might not be the next; You lived that phrase over and over that you no longer believe in love or in eternal happiness, you reached a point where you can foresee where your next relationship is going and yet you go in there hoping that maybe this time things would work out the way they should.
Nothing haunts us like the things we do not say, I know you are trying your best to be tough and maybe my words are of no meaning for you; Because when you are in the middle of pain, sometimes no advice will be good enough. But I believe that maybe you have been looking for love in the wrong places; Sometimes people are beautiful, not in looks, not in what they say, just the way they are; Let your smile change the world but do not let the world change your smile. tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself, and that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams.
Remember that storms do not last forever; You are allowed to be a masterpiece and a work in progress, simultaneously. Do not change yourself because you are afraid of what the world thinks, you might be poor, your shoes may be broken, but your mind is a palace; You have the power to shape yourself into who you want to be and regardless of the boundaries we built between us, you will always be my favorite girl.
There you stand helpless, drained, empty as you feel that you did not fulfill your goals and haven't met your destination in life only to realize too late that life is a journey, not a destination.
And all the self-esteem you once had, all the confidence that helped you reach your current position, all the dreams you waited anxiously to live fall apart and disintegrate in a pond of lies that you have heard along the journey you shared with another person only to realize that you can never lie to yourself and you finally to choose to let go of the rope between you that you have been holding on for too long.
A lost love has teared you, controlled you and took the joy of everything you used to enjoy. It left you in a constant state of denial and self-neglect. Human chemistry is a mystery; some people feel like home, others are just wandering guests in your life that happened to be in the same place and time you were. A loss however was something you could not just accept but was forced to.
A woman can say more in a sigh than a man can say in a sermon; he killed what was left of the good in you but you are tired so you accepted to be broken and instead of rising together into an unattainable level of happiness that he promised, you find yourself left behind as an outcast, a stranger, a friend to him no more or no less while he seems to be in a constant state of euphoria and joy as if nothing has happened and 'you' have never existed or meant anything to him.
But you were told that you were his favorite Hello and hardest Goodbye, you were told that you made him happy and you were enough and everything he needs, you were told that your strength is beyond your imagination and together both of you will climb up the ladder of happiness and delight. Those words seem to have stuck in the corner of your brain, just hanging around to remind you of how naive you were and how words mean nothing with no corresponding action, he gave up on you but what followed is that you gave up on yourself.
Life is finite and fragile, and just because something is there for one day, it might not be the next; You lived that phrase over and over that you no longer believe in love or in eternal happiness, you reached a point where you can foresee where your next relationship is going and yet you go in there hoping that maybe this time things would work out the way they should.
Nothing haunts us like the things we do not say, I know you are trying your best to be tough and maybe my words are of no meaning for you; Because when you are in the middle of pain, sometimes no advice will be good enough. But I believe that maybe you have been looking for love in the wrong places; Sometimes people are beautiful, not in looks, not in what they say, just the way they are; Let your smile change the world but do not let the world change your smile. tell your heart that the fear of suffering is worse than the suffering itself, and that no heart has ever suffered when it goes in search of its dreams.
Remember that storms do not last forever; You are allowed to be a masterpiece and a work in progress, simultaneously. Do not change yourself because you are afraid of what the world thinks, you might be poor, your shoes may be broken, but your mind is a palace; You have the power to shape yourself into who you want to be and regardless of the boundaries we built between us, you will always be my favorite girl.
